Thought of the Day

If Its Hard To Let Go,

then

Hold Onto It.

There will be somethings in life which are so special that it was hard to let go. Instead of letting yourself in pain, try to hold or get onto it. Because the best thing in life is getting something you thought it was impossible to be in your life. 

No more regrets

Next month will be my very last month staying in my own house and also traveling to Kampar. I will be pursuing my studies in English and PR in Segi University. My heart throbs when I come to think about it. I am aware of my flaws and I am trying my best to improve my grammars and vocabulary. Lets not get so far until that extend, but one thing I am promising myself is that, I am so gonna excel well in my studies and career. Life have thrown too many hurdles towards me, and I will never forget those pain that I went through. Instead of having those "IF's", I am going to live in the present and future after this. The pain that was given to me, will I never ever forget and I promise I am going to be a successful woman in life. Seriously, I have so much of determination and guts now. I dare to try everything around me because I start living my own life. I stopped bothering on how a person feels about me, what are they going to talk about and of all I STOPPED LIVING MYSELF FOR OTHERS. Here I am today, living everyday of my life doing what I want. I would not want to regret, for not doing something I really wanted to and I would not want to regret for saying what I wanted to say to a person. I am saying out what I feel today, because this is who I am for today. 

I stopped over thinking over things around me, and I am going with the flow. 

I am Happy now, I can see that in me, and The real key to Happiness is to live like what you want. DO the things that you like and be with those you like being with. Live with no regrets and thats how my new chapter is about to begin. I am going to stay positive , do what I like and say what I like without hurting anyone around me. 

Nostalgicness

I entered UTAR in 2009, and now I am leaving this place who brought me a lot of memories today. In a few hours more, I am leaving this place behind for better future. I am leaving my best friend and closest friend whom I was clueless that our farewell will come to soon.
I would like to express my deepest gratitude to all my friends who did a farewell dinner for me and coming all the way after class to eat a dinner with me for the very last time. I appreciate it a lot. Seriously, now I know that I meant some thing in everyones heart. I wish I could come back and study in UTAR but my destiny is not here. I've a better future for me waiting outside there.
I believe deep in me, leaving UTAR was the most HARDEST decision I've ever took, but looking at the bright side of it, I am going to do the thing I love the most. When I had this golden oppurtunity, why should I miss it.
Knowing that deep in me, I was lying to myself that I will be successful as a chemist, that was a LIE. I am going nowhere while doing this course.
I came across my friends who told me that Dr.Khoo still remembers me and said that I am a very nice girl. Thank you so much for all those who remembered me. ou guys brought so much of happiness into my life. I will never ever forget you guys and now is the real time to know who really will remember me. God is testing us, and I believe in future I will be successful. I made the right move and no regrets.
One thing for sure, I will miss my best friend, Wei Quan, and my other close friends : Vejeya, Shalu, Alex cj, Quarter, Wei Loon, Chakry, Ju xian, Mimi, Manjitha, and etc!! You guys have been so nice to me and I thank God for giving me a chance to know u all.
I hope we are all going to stay in touch forever. It was hard leaving u all behind, but I know you guys understand the decision that I made. See you people around soon. And I love you all a lot!

Joy

The fact is that, life without these thing is meaningless:

• GOOD FAMILY
• GOOD FRIENDS
• PLENTY OF MONEY
• GOOD ENGLISH =D
• and to be L.O.V.E.D

Hell yeah, I am lucky that I was blessed with these two category of people and good command of English. Believe it or not, there is no space for race, religion, skin color,body or beauty in this world, you can be really attractive with a good command of English as well! *DAMN* #faceblushing# 

This semester break, is/was a definite good beginning. I hope I will make a wise decision. =)

I am Happy for Who I am

Just finished my exam, studied totally last minute, i meant exactly 12 hours before exam and I managed to do the paper! I thought I was going to screw up the paper, and yeah I eventually did not. Sometimes, I feel like Im am not smart enough , yet sometimes I feel my brain absorbs things super fast at last minute.
Whatever it is, an individual shouldn't be evaluated by how smart are they in studies, because at the end of the day studies is not everything. There are more precise things other than studies, because some people may be good in some subject but they couldn't be good in everything. So I am happy for who I am. If I do fail any paper this semester, I dont give a damn on what others evaluate me. Because deep inside me I know where I stand. Its not over confident, but self confidence. I am Happy for who I am.

Reflection of Me

Today morning, I came across this on my Facebook, and each word in that sentence totally reflects me. 

Expectation and Disappointment

When you promise a person for an event and out of a sudden you change your mind not go for the event, that could be the worse thing you can ever do to a person. Especially when you break your words that you gave to your best friend. =( I just did that, a few hours ago and I am not over it. This could be the thing that I regret the most although it may sound like a small matter. I really wanna say sorry to him. =(
I broke the trust, promise and also the expectation of my friend. It doesn't sound good, because I knew what could be the consequences. The worse thing is ever to realize that my friend would have been disappointed with me. I am really sad and I wish things would have gone according to the plan. If there were no changes, no one would have got hurt. =(
I really want to say sorry , coz I feel very bad. Thanks to my friend, for his big heart to forgive me and talking to me.

Reminder

She said when i got 19/20 she was impressed and had high expectation, bt when I got 39/100 then she thinks I will fail the paper.. I cant get it out of my mind..
I need remind myself to graduate within 3 years!! I must graduate as soon as possible!! No more screwing up papers...

The Dressed Up Prisoners

This was one of the most anticipated event in Utar since their Prom Nite ticket was worth rm 15 only. When we all gathered there, we were having high expectation in every way on this Prom!
The entrance amazed me, because they decorated the entire Block A heritage hall!
The first entrance, was an epic entrance, one of my friend, Quarter, who was laying down and trying to grab my leg! Lol , he is really a dramatic person.. He can just get into the role he has been assigned for! Very talented guy

so, as we were on the way to enter the heritage hall, the main point where the events happens, I was totally amazed by their effor on the deco seriously. THUMBS UP !

It was time where the event started, I personally didnt really like the MC cz they were not really professional enough. And my most expecting programme was my coursemate Jaemi who were suppose to perform on that night. However, it was a total turnover, cause his singing was not really good compared to on Mixo night. We knew he was disappointed, but What The Hell...we know he is such a talented singer! So I dont give a shit about what other might think about it coz it was the microphone and sound bass problem. Honestly speaking, the programme flow was not really good and all of us were tired coz our legs were really tired. 

The moment we really enjoyed was to take the photos! HAHAHHA

Pictures right away!

the most epic photo of all

i love this shot..natural

i am so not gonna be a prisoner...cz i dun look like one

haha

one of my favourite... ;)

i like this photo for two reason.

1. all my close friends /besties are in it

2. i look like nicest in this photo..lol

we acting like a zombie!

wanted....my value is so high..;P

Overall, I can say that the committee really put in a lot of effort into this event. Except for the food and programme flow, the rest was GOOD rated. I wish I can join more events with my friend, coz at the end of the day, what you gain when u get to attend this kind of events is that your bonds will bring you closer. 

This event wouldnt have been enjoyable without my friends around me. So cheers to my friends for our togetherness! 

All the dislikes

I dislike people who easily get jealous.

I dislike to wait

I dislike people who challenge me

I dislike people who tell me to do something which I dun wish to

I dislike people who nags a lot

I dislike people who break promises

I dislike people who dont appreciate others

I dislike people who smoke

I dislike people who curse me

I dislike people who controls me from doing what I like

I dislike people who treats me bad in front of others

I dislike when a person changes their mind on very last moment

All about Mixology Night!

Mixology Night which was my very first event in UTAR...  This was my first ever experience working as  secretary for an event because before this I was just assigned to be the team leader for an activity, treasurer and etc.. So, mixology night, I will just rate it for 60% because there were many to be improved actually on the night. As today when we discussed about it, we realize we could have made it better in so many things. But never mind, there;s always a next time for it. 

First of all, my thank goes to all my friends who came to support my event. Some came from outstation just to support the Chemistry night, and the rest came although they'd to pay rm30 bucks! It shows that I have many good buddies around me .. :)

These were the photos that we took on the Mixology Night~ They are those of my favourites!

with my pets ;)

me and ju xian.. he must be lucky to tke photo with me :P

they are my sweet hearts! 

the chemistry icons!

OF ALL MY FAVOURITES THIS IS THE BEST

me and andrew..he came all way from KL

my deepest appreciation to Miss Saw and Dr.Eddy

The sisters!

The two tall girl with Handsome guy~

I would like to thank to all the committee for making this event a successful one. We had so much of ups and downs, but we manage to overcome it. During the post mortem it was so nice that we got to talk all our dissatisfactions. I enjoyed working as a secretary and learnt a lot! Thank you so much and I am sorry if I ever had hurt anyone of you guys. Love the Mixology Team a lot ;)

p/s: we gained profit~ wahhahaha(best part of all)

Too Many!

I feel like too many things are coming up soon!
Too many calls!
Too many messages!
Too many complains
Too many work!
Too many friends..

For a moment, I wanna just close my hand phone and do my own work!

Success

Success neither waits right out of your door nor knocks your door. Success is a complicated maze where you have to keep finding for a way to open the door of it. Basically, to achieve victory we have to start from zero to turn to be hero. If you're blessed, you may be born to be a hero and you keep your title there. I believe everyone has the capability of being successful in life. It depends on how create you path or road. 

Personally, I don't believe in luck. When a person says they do not win because of luck is totally a crap. Luck does not exist if we never create our own one. When things does not goes the way you expected, there should be a mistake that you would have done. Every question has an answer, and you have to find for it.

According to a research, mathematics are one of the hardest subject for most of the students. Well, this is because we tend to give up so easily. Mathematics, in fact is the only subject where you need to keep doing and you will get an answer. The answers are fixed, the methods are just a few, and its how we solve it. Same goes for success. 

Since our final semester results are almost out, I hope it will turn to be a good one, if it does not lets not give up. God Bless us all for our results. If you ever fail, its not the end of the world. Something big might be awaiting you. Think carefully and be inspired always. If you're worried for PTPTN start saving your money now because that is what I am doing now. =P 

Lets Earn together!

I have few projects on my hand.
This is  the first one.
1.
Planning to earn while sitting at home. Here is how it goes!
If you have any ARTICLES/SHORT STORIES/ASSIGNMENTS/OLD ESSAYS
you can send it to me at shan_ash_91@hotmail.com
we will be paying you rm1 if u send us less than 10 articles in a row.
If you are sending us more than 10 articles one shot, we will pay you rm1.50 for each articles.
The criteria given are
1. This article 100% belong to you
2.it should be more than 400 words
3.never been published on internet before
4.u can write on anything! =)

The second one.
I need article writers to work under me. You will be given articles to write. If 200-300 words, we pay you rm1. Onward 400 - 500 words we pay you rm 2. Above 500 words we pay you rm 3, Who ever who are interested, please do send me an email at shan_ash_91@hotmail.com.
Or else, you can personally ask for my number on facebook.
So what are you waiting for? Lets earn so penny!

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.

Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?
* it really took a minute to say hello to you, it took me months to know you better, i took me years to imagine how things could be with you and....it takes me forever to say goodbye to you...

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. 
* when its hard to say goodbye to someone, its because you cant let go off the person. its hard to say it to you because you are ONE IN A MILLION for me...its never gonna happen for anyone to replace you in my heart.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.  Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.
Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave. 


If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden.

A goodbye isn't painful unless you're never going to say hello again.

Deepavallii

Will be leaving to Seremban in awhile. This will be my 19th deepavalli celebration in Seremban for this year. Right now at this moment, Im having cookiessick, cousinsick and angpau-sick...hehhe
Cant wait for our cousin reunion in Seremban..! Aunty and Uncle, I am coming soon..please wait for me coz I know Deepavalli is boring without me over there...hahhax!
Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my Hindu friends Happy Deepavali! May this festival of lights bring us lots of prosperity, happiness, wealth and bring all of us united together! =)

15th october!

Today is one of my best friend's birthday. All i wanna wish is MANY MORE HAPPY RETURN OF THE DAY. I wish that throughout your 19th birthday you will enjoy and be happy always. This is your last teen birthday as you're going to be 20 next year. So be happy always and no more emo and sadness after this. You deserve alot of happiness in your life. I truly wish you to be happy always coz i know how much of pain you went through before this. it is time to let go off everything and begin a new 19th life. Make a wise decisions in everything you're up to. No more regrets in life after this because i seriously dun wanna see my best friend suffering or regretting. And to be honest, I;m quite proud to be there for you in your journey of being a 19 year old teenager! My birthday gift for these moment is my wishes for you as this birthday wishes i am doing wholeheartedly. I seriously wish to be wishing you on your more upcoming bdays n celebrating with you my dear bestie.Sorry that i am not there to celebrate with you on ur precious day ya! Whatever isit, eventhough i am not beside you now on your bday, i will be there for you at the age of 19, 20, 21 , 22, 23.............and so on! Anyway, lets wait and see what happens to you after this at the age of 19... so once again happy bday my dear bestie!

Life is like a cup of coffee

life is like a cup of coffee~
after watching this video i realised,
that life is all about care, love and our feelings. 
money do bring us happiness but it is not for eternity,
but our feelings can bring us happiness and its eternal. 
money is the cup, but our feelings are the coffee~~
we should enjoy the coffee and not the cup. So we should really focus on what makes us happy and not our surrounding.
if we care for other things while we're concentrating to achieve something we really want, we might not get it coz we are distracted by things around it.
at the end of the day, its not what we accomplish for others. but what we had done for our self~~

A to Z friendship

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.


A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems


A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

Best Friends....

(A)ccepts you as you are

(B)elieves in "you"

(C)alls you just to say "HI"

(D)oesn't give up on you

(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)

(F)orgives your mistakes

(G)ives unconditionally

(H)elps you

(I)nvites you over

(J)ust "be" with you

(K)eeps you close at heart

(L)oves you for who you are

(M)akes a difference in your life

(N)ever Judges

(O)ffer support

(P)icks you up

(Q)uiets your fears

(R)aises your spirits

(S)ays nice things about you

(T)ells you the truth when you need it

(U)nderstands you

(V)alues you

(W)alks beside you

(X)-plains thing you don't understand

(Y)ells when you won't listen and

(Z)aps you back to reality

Sand and Stone

An illustrative friendship story about a walk through the desert, which tests the strength of their friendship.

During some point of the journey, they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, he wrote in the sand:

Today my best friend slapped me in the face.

They kept on walking, until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but his friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:

Today my best friend saved my life.

The friend, who had slapped and saved his best friend, asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand, and now, you write on a stone, why?"
The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand, where the winds of forgiveness can erase it away, but when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.

Learn to write your hurts in the sand and to carve your blessings in stone.